90th sweets.

All gone, i groaned, frustrated. You will never come back to me anymore. Should i just give up on you easily without doing something that could let you fall in love to me one more time? I hope you could give me a chance to continue our relationship. I insist upon a definite answer from you, but i was devastated by the answer you gave me. Despite by sheer persistence, i eventually can't change his mind. So, don't be idiot anymore. Even i cry, i beg, i hope, you will never give me the answer i eager for. Don't waste my tears anymore, maybe we should end up the relationship early so that we won't so suffer for a long time. Guy, i hope you just kidding now, i hope that you will come back to me soon. Will you? Do you know you make me mad after you gone? I don't know how to release myself from the hurt, sadness. Do you know? I never think that you have leaved me, you just go for a travel or study. But I've already obsessed with the dream for around one week, it's the time wake up. You never go for a travel or study, you always at here, just you're not belong me anymore. You're freedom and release yourself from the suffer. I should accept your decision and try be optimistic, try to view everything at the difference point. MAYBE i should let you go, set you free. You could happier than together with me. I bless you, i wish that there will be a girl who love, cherish, care and tolerance with you. She might replace my place and value in your heart, i belief you will find "her" out soon. GOOD LUCK, MY DEAREST EX BII!

89th sweets.

What going on!!???? What wrong i did again? I really don't want to end up like that!You just answer me that you didn't love me! So, what's the reason that makes you not love me anymore? Isn't the feeling to me having changes or you have already love other girl?  I'm just curious about it. Do you fool or play my sentiment during this one year and two months? So much promise we make but why we can't accomplish both wishes? What mean by 'WE NOT FUTURE!'? Don't you feel that this just an excuse? Can i don't accept it as the reason you break up? You said that we didn't suitable! Well, what your respond and answer you give me when last time i told you that? Do you still remember? But now what you tell me? 'WE DIDN'T SUITABLE!' Damn! You just like your ex, give me a lot of excuse to replace the reason you want to break up with me! I'm immature? Just like you said and you always thought. Then how about you? You really think that you are mature? You're NOT! Seriously, you just same with me, not kidding! I admit that i'm playful, naive and childish, but i really try to change since you told me you want me to be mature. But even how hard i try to be mature, you seem didn't notice. I'm sorry, i couldn't be the perfect girl that you want. In this world, nobody is perfectionist, you should know it. If you're suffer, i could let you take a long break to rest. I just don't want you left me alone, you break up with me, I....I....I....I.REALLY.LOVE.YOU.MUCH! May you come back to me? May you give me one more chance? please.

88th sweets.

04.04.2012   WEDNESDAY 

So, public holiday. And of course my dearest beloved have pre-celebrate my birthday during this day, XOXO! The previous day, i'm damn afraid and worried about you couldn't celebrate my birthday together but you didn't let me feel disappointed in the end, muawahahahaaaassss! Redbox! Seriously, i never celebrate my birthday at there before, the first time i do and the second time i went to there with he, haha! I'm totally late on that day, ermmm...SORRY for that! xD

The birthday cake which he bought for me. 

Oh no! SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANT! Freaking damn love them! 

Do you know? The atmosphere was so sweet and makes me feel warm when you're holding the cake to me and sang a birthday song for me. I think i will never forget this feeling! DAMN TOUCH! C= 

Will the wishes i make come true in the future? I hope you could celebrate the birthday with me every year, the best ever wish i want! =D


06.04.2012   THURSDAY
Hehehehe...finally my birthday reached-6th of April. And this year will be more special because my classmate planned to help me and another birthday girl celebrated the birthday. Cherryl, a pretty Aries babe which same birthday with me. They bought the flavor of my favorite, TIRAMISU. Oh my god!

We didn't eat this cake much actually, we threw the cream and cake. And some of us were "kena" the cream including me, it's really make my face oily. -.-  I hope that he could beside me and celebrate with me but he couldn't because of the symphony band. He was rushed to see me when i'm reached school, i'm very touch and i feel that i'm very, very, very important to you. Bii, you're the first boyfriend that try the bread i make. It's really yummy to you? LOL! But next time don't too rush anymore, i'm afraid that you might fall down or injure. C=

Last, one more celebration for me from my family. My brother treat me Mc Donald, and my mum bought me a chocolate cake, it's quite delicious. I thinks i will be more fat after this. :'D Bii, family, classmate and friends, the dearest one, the concern one, the friendly one, really thank a lot! This is the best and memorable birthday i ever had!