109th sweets.

We have been together for more than half a year, so glad that I’m still being you, babe. From the first time we meet till now, we never argue, never break up. Babe, you really a caring guy, really so glad to have you. I know babe, sorry for sometimes, I will totally ignored you. Sometimes, I just suddenly feel jealous about something that you done, I know I should be more generous, but I’m so sorry I couldn’t. When I’m moody, you’re the one who know about it, I hope that I wouldn’t moody anymore, but I’ an emotional, and a hot-temper girl, I may be passion for this moment, but in the next moment, I may be down and upset without any reasons. But babe, actually I like you when I’m moody, you always besides me and cheer me up, never leaves me alone. Every school dismiss, you would accompany me walk out from the school. Guy, I love your smile, your smile can light up my world. I don’t want you moody, and stare blankly thinking about something, it look scary.

Do you know why sometime I look so moody and will angry suddenly? Because sometime I really jealous about something, but it could be a trivial matter. But sometimes those trivial matters will cause my anger.  I hated you close with other girls, especially with the physic teacher! Sorry, I should tell you what wrong with me honestly, but I really don’t want to tell, I don’t know how to tell.  Sound weird if I tell you that. 

Sorry, babe. That day I shouldn’t leave you alone when exhibition, I should release that you are in the bad mood, I really sorry about that. I rush out school after dismissal, I wonder why what wrong with me, I just feel that I really did a big mistake, sorry. I admit I’m not a good girlfriend, but I really try not to be moody, i really try to change my hot-temper, but I know I didn’t have any improve, sorry.

Babe, actually I’m not ignore you purposely, I just need some time to cold down myself, sorry. Babe, I know you very care me, worry me, and I love the way you care. Babe, how good if we always maintain our relationship like now? Babe I love you. I know I may not express my feeling, my love very well, but I really loved, really. And today is our 7th monthly anniversary. So bad we didn’t have a chance hang out and celebrate it, but never mind, you still here, I still can feel that warm. I’m waiting for the next week, our dating. Errmmmm…every monthly anniversary, both of us talk about the same thing, so this year same too, babe, thanks, thanks for the everything, thanks for the first time you get my handphone number, and you send me the picture purposely, thanks that you chooses me, thanks that you don’t mind my hot-temper, ignorance, thanks for your care, love, and send me a message before you go to the bed or wake up in the early morning before you go to school. Really touch, you know? Never got a guy treat me that way, you really special, even I angry, you got the way let me not angry some more. When I sick you are the one always ask about my condition, remind me take the medicine. Babe, you really let me be the happiness girl in this world. MUACKZ! I know I owe someone a lot of thing, I will pay back to you soon, don’t worry. Babe not matter what happen should tell me, we can solve it together. And don’t always go to bed lately, you know how bad it’s, and babe I envy you. Why you always sleep lately but you didn’t have the panda’s eye? Hey? Remember what babe promise me? Now AUGUST already, should go study, and fight for the trail. Should we study for our SPM now? I’m waiting for someone teaching my worst subject, BIOLOGY. Honestly, babe i  really afraid that you leave me as what he did to me. But i know you won't, i know babe you always be with me, wont leave me, right? I know babe will keep the promise, i trust you. I don't know why i will love you till now although my friends dislike you, have some misunderstand to you, they afraid me cheat by you, but i still trust you, i know you won't, i wonder why i trust? But at least know babe you won't let me disappointed. Thanks! 

Now i think i'm alright with them, i really give myself a big encouragement to start a conversation with her, i think if i not sick for a long period, i wouldn't feel that they're important me too. I really wanna cherish my friendship and relationship. I know it's hard, but i hope it could be. FRIEND, i cherish you, really, just like i cherish him. 

108th sweets.

HOHOHOOOO....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.

I'm officially 17 years old now. Last night, they had already celebrated my birthday at my house, this is the first time i celebrate my birthday with friends and him at my house, very excited. Never think that they would make me a lot surprises, especially the "SPONGEBOB" cake, really appreciate a lot. Besides, honestly, this also the first time my bf went to my house, so surprise it could happen on yesterday.

Last night, we swam together, i hope that the time could freeze at that moment. i really enjoy with them, although feel guilty that let him sat at there alone and play his phone, by the way, i really hope that you could swim with us, i wonder why, just feel that feel so loneliness at there alone.

Thus, they cooked in my kitchen, i'm so afraid that if  my mum comes back later, she will releases that the floor, wall of kitchen will oily, and smelly. But in the end, she do. They really waste a lot money to buy the grocery, sausages, and hot dogs. Actually i don't know how to classifying the differences. He cooking skill not bad, although he quite quiet when every times i meet him, but JH, YL them keep say that he not that quiet, don't judge the book by its cover, he very noisy in the class.

Since i met him, since form 3, every years my birthday will be that surprise. Even now he leaves me, but i got him, he really quite nice, he give every care to me, gentle and soft, he really a perfect guy like him. He will even cheer my up when i'm moody, upset, really a nice guy.

Every year, I made three wishes for myself. First, it would for my family, I wish them stay healthy. Secondly, I wish my friend could get their happiness, good luck and work hard for the SPM. Lastly, I made a wish for my own, a secret wish. Thanks, friends, family, and beloved. the best birthday ever! Memorable.

107th sweets.

I'm in love! hehe..this cutie babe has been waiting me for so long and now his dream was comes true. ;)

Ermm...the first impression that he gave was very terrible since form 3, so i not so like him, and i feel so worst because sitting same row with him in the class, sitting next to me in physic lab. I know the first time i talked with him was at physic lab, and i told him the answer, i wonder why i will helped him on that day. 

And then we chat, we hang out, and then the some problems come...many peoples even friends doubt us, misunderstand us, his ex even came back and request for gave up on him...I'm really an idiot, i really try to give up him and let him back to her. But i never expect, he will come back to me and choose to give up his ex.